Give care today and be happy

Well, I mailed the Christmas for my family today (so if you are my family, be watching). I also delivered my sister-in-law's present last night, in the hospital. We don't know if she will ever make it home. She is going to a specialty hospital next week. Well since I have seemed to lost my job I think I will apply there. I worked there with a client this summer and it appears to be a nice, small hospital for recovering and such. My husband is doing allot better, his hand is healing and this week is party week. YEAH My Christmas, the parties. This is what I get for Christmas this year. Last Christmas I was at the kids helping out (I hope) This year I'm doing allot of sitting around. Oh the company I work for is looking for work for me, but, you know, an idle care giver is a non productive care giver. I think I will go back to school and become a barber. $5.00 a haircut. I wish I could get back to kids, I do miss caring for children, especially this time of year. I've got to do something. Any suggestions? Just send to this blog. Well, Merry Christmas no matter what the day brings you. Be happy, that's all we can really do for ourselves. Go out and care about someone today. Hold a door, give you spot in line to someone, give some treats to an old person. Love, that is what care givers do.

Ah, this too

I have just got home from work, it is late and quiet and I wax nostalgic. You see, I miss my kids. Not just now but a long time ago. I miss seeing them when they were small. Oh, they are great adults and parents, now, and I love them even more, but seeing them, small, seeing their dirty faces, having them in my home, heck, that is home. When I watch all the old Christmas shows, I think of my kids. When I go to the mall, yes, I think of shopping with and for my kids. I miss the joy that only children bring. You know what I mean? I'm with old people at work. I live with old people now. I am old now and I miss my kids. I try and pick up the babies at church, but we only have 6 in the hole primary. We only have 40 In our branch ( well the ones who come) Yes, tonight, as I sit alone in the quiet, I miss what my kids are dealing with now in their own life. See guys, it does change, gets better, improves, grows, well it does something.. Remember to enjoy today with all its warts because tomorrow it will be missed. I love you all and wish I could of been a better mother to you all. This, too, is care (giving)

Is it care giving or not?

I'm sorry,but I have to put this down, in writing. I need help, help with Christmas, Christmas stories on how people help others. You see, life hasn't always been easy and I have had challenges and so have my kids. There were two Christmases that my daughters and I were alone and kind of lost. No home, no tree, and no presents. No money and a job hard to find, I didn't have anyone from the church bring food, no presents given, not even a car ride to get to church. I'm hopeful that the girls don't have bad memories of this time, but I have nightmares about it every year. Yes, I feel sorry for myself, every Christmas, I just can't seem to get over it. Where were all these heaven sent aid in my time of need? There's more than Christmas, there were times in the hospital that I couldn't get any help. There is the time when after having surgery I was called to take a meal to someone who had a baby. After explaining that I just had surgery and couldn't help out at this time you would think that they would help me? No, because I didn't need a meal, I needed someone to vacuum my rug. Oh well, I'm being petty, but I just can't seem to let it go. I have to admit that I don't do allot of compassionate service because of how I feel. O.K. there is my self pity, my steam, Now I need to let it go, out in the universe. Let it go. Not my problem any more. Well, we will see. I want to let it go, really I do. Christmas is the time to think of others, not self. Give all that love and care even if I didn't get it in my time. Hopefully I won't be leaving this legacy with someone else. Reach out. Care for others. Do what ever you can. Love, Live, Laugh.