Merry Christmas

Christmas is over and waiting for the new year. No work and nothing to do. It's nice to have a break and refresh your soul, too bad money always plays into it. I sat Christmas Eve with my charge, and it was okay. I will be sitting with him on New Years also. That is one thing you always have to remember, people still need care even over the holidays. I have worked the holidays for the last 5 years, my family is away and I have no one to be with anyway. Just like the song, if you can't be with the ones you love, love the ones you're with. I miss you all.

Death

People die as differently as they live. As I sit with people who have reached the end of their life I am in awe in the way they choose to go. We have the people who just wait for it to arrive, not trying to stop death or prolong their life and again you have the ones who fight it to the end. There is allot of different meds that dieing people can use to ease the anxiety and pain. ( yes, some have allot of pain) but some refuse to see that they are dieing and can make this transaction easier. I have sat with those who are just waiting and with those who are fighting. I hope when the time comes for me that I can just except the fact and go. That is also a way to shed this mortal life, just except it and go. I have sat with families that suffer in the same ways, some fight and some just except. Families that are prepared for the death seem to enjoy those last moments with their love ones. I'm not saying that I am dieing at this moment but I do think about it. What would I do if someone I loved was in those final moments. It's a thought I feel we all need to think on at least one time in our life. How will I die.

Another day

Well the last blog I put in was never printed or my e-mails that day. Must be the weather. I have been home for 10 days now. I have pneumonia and it's giving me a bad time. My o2 level was 90 and they put you in the hospital at 88 so here I am with oxygen and a nebulizer. Can't make money when you are sick, but I can't risk making my clients sick either. I am now doing hospice clients and the baby room in the days.(that's how I got sick, the babies) The care giver is in need of some care giving, but my only friend is in Utah and that's where I stand. I guess I should go out and make friends. You know, not just dieing people and new born babies. So that is another day in a care givers life.